As he wakes up his eyes feels like a ton of bricks, his head is empty and full of pain, “what the fuck did I do last night” he ask himself, and as his eyes are slowly opening he is griped with a sense of panic, he has no idea where the fuck he is, “oh god not again”. This is not the first time this has happened, john is used to drinking and waking up in strange places. After he lost his wife his life has gone to hell one drink at a time. so what is john’s story, well he used to be a different man a man who people looked up to, he had a beautiful wife a big house and success, but one night it all ended.
That night was a night that will never be lost from his memories, the pain it created was to big, to hurtful, he could never be the same again after it, every night in his sleep he saw her face, and that moment before she left, when he tucked her hair behind her ear and kissed her for the last time, plays over and over again. She was only suppose to drive to a friend, but faith was not by here side, and mother nature was angry that night, as she drove the little rain ended in a full storm, and she spun out of control and into a tree, the woman with the face of an angel was gone.
As he received the phone call he broke down every bone was gone, his heart broken, his mind turned into a dark abyss where all that he was got sucked down in a split seconds, his life with his angel was over, there was no words, no hope, only tears and a cold broken heart.
His friends tried to help him out, one after the other they cam to comfort to give him advice, but all he wanted was to see her face again, kiss her warming blissful lips, he started drinking trying to find the answer to his sorrow in the darkness of his local rundown bar, but no matter how drunk he got he could not get her out of his mind, soon the liquor was not enough and he found the white nurse, her beauty was alluring, she had what he needed, her kiss would pierce his skin and send him into a pure state of enchantment, a world where there was only peace, no feelings, no pain, only blissful emptiness.
He could finally be at peace with himself, and soon he would be under the magical spell of her ever drowning love, the white nurse swallowed him whole and spat out a empty shell of a man, a man doomed to stumble the streets at night searching for the face of his angel, but no angel he could see, in his new world only demons where around, they tortured him with a deep pain, with misery and despair, and where ever he walked he was always alone, his friends had left him, the site of his self-destructing way became to much for them to handle, they had tried to much, they gave up, but he didn’t need them he didn’t need anyone all he needed was the smile of his angel, and he was not giving up.
Spiraling ever down in misery his mind soon started to play tricks on him, the women around him was starting to look like the angel he was so lost to find, and on this night the white nurse brought him to a run down house filled with walking skeletons filling their dried out vanes with the love that the nurse provided. He sat down found the nurse and asked for her kiss, it pierced his skin and his blood turned to tar, slowly he was empty he turned around and amongst the dead faces, there she was, his angel, he ran to her hugged her kissed her, finally she was with him again, his empty eyes where filled with tears.
He took her hand and led her up the stairs, and they found a empty room, he looked at her beautiful face and whispered “you look more amazing than ever, why did you leave me?” she took her finger on his lips, and she whispered “don’t worry about that just give me a kiss my beautiful prince”, as they where kissing they both started taking their clothes of and he lay her down, slowly he kissed her neck, and his finger started to stroke her chest, he could feel her nipples getting harder as he softly stroked over them. He kissed his way down from her neck to her breast, his hand was now all the way down, gently stroking her clit, he could feel her breath getting more and more heavy, and her pussy getting more and more wet, she was in pure ecstasy biting her lips, her body couldn’t lay still, he went down on her and started licking her, his tongue splitting her lips as the tip started massaging her wet clit, like a wild bull her body started to go crazy, her hands holding his head in place, “oh god oh god” she screamed as the orgasm flowed through her body, her entire body shaking of pleasure. as he was moving up again she could feel his hard cock pressing up against the lips of her wet pussy, and slowly he put it in, he looked her in the eyes, and she looked back at him bitting her lips even harder, he ran his fingers through her hair just looking at her beauty as he is pushing his dick in and out of her warm wet pussy, she takes her arms around his back and she pulled his body closer to hers, he could feel her breath on his neck, so long has he lusted for this, this feeling of pure happiness of having her, of kissing her, of feeling her body, it’s so good he is about to exploded, “just a little more” “just a little more” she screamed, and as the night ended they exploded into orgasm.
He tucked her hair behind her ear and whispered, “stay with me, please don’t fall asleep, I don’t want to lose you again” his eyes started to fill with tears slowly running down. Don’t cry for me she tells him, “I won’t leave, I’m here to stay”, and with a smile she feel asleep, he tried to have his eyes open so he could watch her through the night, but they where to tired his whole body was a mess, and soon his body gave in.
"Oh god not again" he looked around in the room he had never been here before, and who was that woman laying in the bed, "what the fucked happened to me last night". The woman in the bed was starting to wake up, "shit shit what do I do" he thought to himself, "Hey handsome how are you feeling" she asked with a smile on her face, "to be honest I have no idea what the fuck is happening, did we have sex?", she answers with a laughing voice "yes silly don’t you remember it was amazing", as she looks at his face she can see the disappointment shining from his eyes, she quickly realized that he wasn’t having sex with her, "so who is she", he stutters for a moment "what are you talking about?", she smiles at him "who is the woman you thought you where having sex with last night? because obviously it wasn’t me, you know the nurse can trick you into seeing what you want to see, so who was she the woman you saw instead of me?", he sits down and starts telling her about his wife and his life before. she looks at him "now listen to me I have been in this game since I was thirteen and I have seen a lot of shit, I see lost souls filled with pain like yours all the time, and trust me they all fall to deep in the end, but I can’t let that happen to you, you are just starting you can still get out", he looks at her and nods "I know this is not a good way to solve my problems but after my wife died my whole world just went to hell, I can’t sleep, I can’t work, i’m just so fucking tired of everything, I don’t want to be miserable, I don’t want to feel this pain, I just want to feel okay and have her back with me".
She put’s her hand on his back “know you want that, but life does not work like that, you can’t always get what you want, you got to make good with what you got, or fall into darkness like me, and trust me you don’t want that, you are an amazing man, you are real, you are strong and I know right now it all feels like fucking shit but trust me it will get better, but not if you stay here” he looks at her “you’re right, but what do I do?”, “you go to the rehab center and you get help” he nods again, he know she is right, he can’t keep on living this way, he needs to get away from the white nurse before she kills him completely…
No words can ever describe the beauty that shines from the bottom of your soul, no words are good enough to tell you how you make me feel. For everything stops when I see you, when I hear your voice, you are the one I dream of every night and I just need you by my side for now and forever. For you are my goddess my beauty queen my everything!